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Friday, February 6, 2009
Thursday, February 5, 2009
So.....
Hubbs and I were in line at the grocery store last night, and I almost fell over. I was just standing there, minding my own business, when suddenly it was like someone tilted the floor.
I've made a neurology appointment-the soonest they can see me is March 9th.
You all were right-peace of mind is better than wondering what the hell is going on.
Wish me luck!
I've made a neurology appointment-the soonest they can see me is March 9th.
You all were right-peace of mind is better than wondering what the hell is going on.
Wish me luck!
Wednesday, February 4, 2009
Have you ever wondered?
Sometimes I wonder what it's like to be normal. I know I'm not too far from normal-I'm not INSANE, just slightly off-kilter.
Have you seen the Kleenex commercial where the woman is going about her day, and they show you everything she comes in contact with?
"Touch, touch, touch, touch, touch, touch" says the voice-over, again and again.
Replace the word "touch" with the following, and that is what it's like in my head.
"stress, worry, worry, tired, not good enough, dumb, old, fat, why, give up, no, wait, you're doing great, you look great, things are great, be thankful, can't, won't, worry, worry , stress, screw it it's bed time."
Have you seen the Kleenex commercial where the woman is going about her day, and they show you everything she comes in contact with?
"Touch, touch, touch, touch, touch, touch" says the voice-over, again and again.
Replace the word "touch" with the following, and that is what it's like in my head.
"stress, worry, worry, tired, not good enough, dumb, old, fat, why, give up, no, wait, you're doing great, you look great, things are great, be thankful, can't, won't, worry, worry , stress, screw it it's bed time."
Did you know.....
that asparagus is a natural diuretic?
It's all I had for dinner last night-and I lost 3 pounds. In one day. I was BLOATED! 140 by this Friday is not so far out of reach.
Now if I could just be happy with my job and my health, things would be perfect!
It's all I had for dinner last night-and I lost 3 pounds. In one day. I was BLOATED! 140 by this Friday is not so far out of reach.
Now if I could just be happy with my job and my health, things would be perfect!
Tuesday, February 3, 2009
Negative Nancy
I left work at 9:30 yesterday to pick Youngest up from school-he wasn't feeling well, so I decided to stay home with him. I was kind of in need of a mental health day, because (Surprise!) I once again drank more than I wanted to this past weekend, and I (Surprise!) gained back a few pounds that I lost. So I felt like a big loser and wanted to stay home and wallow in my loserness, and work off some beer and sodium bloat. Which I did, and I'm back on the downhill slide, but I think I'll be lucky if I see 140 this Friday like I did last Friday. Anyway.....
In between the drinking, and the eating, and the frustration I'm feeling at work, I am NOT happy. Not at all. My job is starting to feel pointless, and while I should be thankful I have a job, so many things aren't making sense, and are starting to make me wonder if I should abandon ship.
Then I hear things like if you're an unmarried woman the state will pay for your schooling so you can get a degree, and a job in whatever field has the best outlook. What about us married women? Doesn't seem fair, but I guess those unmarried woman are thinking the same thing about me right now.
And finally, my health. I don't know how many times I have to say this, but I DO NOT FEEL WELL. The doctor's office called me yesterday and said they were probably going to send me back to the neurologist because 1. The previous MRI showed decreased blood flow to my brain, and while there were no visible plaques it's something that should be monitored and 2. There is something called an occular migraine but since I haven't really gotten a headache it's probably not that.
It's not their fault I don't feel well, but I am tired of dealing with it. I guess I could move my appointment up, but then I would really have to deal with what's going on with me and maybe I'm not ready for that. Maybe I just want to be mad and frustrated for a while.
In between the drinking, and the eating, and the frustration I'm feeling at work, I am NOT happy. Not at all. My job is starting to feel pointless, and while I should be thankful I have a job, so many things aren't making sense, and are starting to make me wonder if I should abandon ship.
Then I hear things like if you're an unmarried woman the state will pay for your schooling so you can get a degree, and a job in whatever field has the best outlook. What about us married women? Doesn't seem fair, but I guess those unmarried woman are thinking the same thing about me right now.
And finally, my health. I don't know how many times I have to say this, but I DO NOT FEEL WELL. The doctor's office called me yesterday and said they were probably going to send me back to the neurologist because 1. The previous MRI showed decreased blood flow to my brain, and while there were no visible plaques it's something that should be monitored and 2. There is something called an occular migraine but since I haven't really gotten a headache it's probably not that.
It's not their fault I don't feel well, but I am tired of dealing with it. I guess I could move my appointment up, but then I would really have to deal with what's going on with me and maybe I'm not ready for that. Maybe I just want to be mad and frustrated for a while.
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