Monday, March 23, 2009

I am in NO MOOD!

Depressed, very depressed. I've decided it's a worse feeling to be disappointed in yourself than to be disappointed in other people.

I swear, every weekend I tell myself I'm going to do things differently, and every weekend I do the exact same shit. Drink too much, eat too much, smoke too much, then before I know it it's Monday. My weekends pass in a haze.

That and the fact that Hubbs and I were very distant this weekend, I had my feelings hurt numerous times, and my weight shot up 5 flippin pounds-I'm just in no mood to deal with anything today.

Now if I could remember this feeling come Friday, maybe I could make the changes necessary to not feel like such a loser.


mile191 said...

Lulu...i feel you honey. I am so sorry. I posted about my friday experience and so wish that I could take it back. for my friend, for my daughter, for me. for all the pain of my past...

i just feel like i am in NO mood, with you.

may I post something about you in my reflections today...

Lula said...

Thanks Mile. And good thought to you and your family during this difficult time.

You can post whatever you like, I don't mind.