Having a mood disorder was once described to me this way-
A normal person will get up in the morning, maybe 10 minutes late. "Damn it-I better hurry."
They put on their coat on the way out the door, and find $10.00 in the pocket. "Nice!"
On the way to work, they get stuck at a railroad crossing. "Shit, now I'm going to be even later."
They make it to work, and the day goes on.
A Bi-polar person sees the same events this way-
"HOLY CRAP I'M LATE!!!!!!! The whole day is RUINED!! I should just go back to bed, SCREW IT! MY LIFE SUCKS!!!!!!!!!!!"
Upon finding $10.00 in their pocket-"AWESOME!! Oh my god, this is the best day EVER!!!!!!"
And getting stuck behind a train "Why does the world hate me??? Stupid frickin train, stupid frickin job, I wish I had NEVER BEEN BORN!!!!!!!!"
And the rest of the day is spent grouchy, moody, angry, etc.....
See the difference?
I feel just like that today.
"It's cookie day! Awesome, I can't WAIT to make cookies all day! Today ROCKS!"
Then, after discovering that the hot rollers I borrowed to do my own party hair for Hubbs' Christmas party next Saturday will not work for me-
"Everything SUCKS! I hate my hair, I'm a huge cow, why do I even bother TRYING!!!!! POOR MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE. Fuck it, I hate EVERYTHING."
I swear it's ridiculous how easily I can let myself ruin my own day.
My advice to myself? Get OVER IT.