Wednesday, October 8, 2008

Another Reason Why I Drink/Drank

I have a family member who, every once in a while, thinks that I am part of the conspiracy the rest of the world is involved in to make it a point to hurt his or his daughters feelings.

It's exhausting. It also makes me cry. And very angry. Why do I continue to defend myself to someone when I have done nothing wrong? We have gone months without speaking because of something he thought I said under my breath. Like, hello? When have I not told you to get the hell out of my house TO YOUR FACE?

I could go on and on, and I would like to, but quite frankly, I'm emotionally exhausted right now.

The best part? I'm at work.

Woo hoo!

4 comments:

Red said...

It is frustrating when other people blame you for things you didn't do. That has to be one of the things that makes me the most frustrated. Being at work is good to keep your mind preoccupied with other things. Busy. I have started trying to schedule my days a little bit so I have more structure. So far it seems to be helping. I like your blog.

LulaBelle said...

Thanks Red.

Structure does seem to make all the difference. I find my hardest days are slow work days, or weekends with no plans.

Miyonao said...

I couldn't agree more. A full-time regular job does give me the structure I need since I'm someone who can't stick to a schedule of my own.

Besides, when we're busy, we won't have time to think too much.

LulaBelle said...

Thinking too much is my downfall-all of ours it seems!