Thursday, October 9, 2008

Sleep, Glorious Sleep

I have never slept well. I have trouble falling asleep, I have trouble staying asleep, and when I am lucky enough to go to sleep, I have nightmares. This has been my sleep pattern for at least 20 years. In between the emotional issues and the fact that I wake up to pee at least 3 times a night, it’s amazing I am able to function at all.

I haven’t mentioned this yet because I didn’t want to hex it, but here goes.

I have slept through the night the last 7 days. In a row. Slept through as in slept solidly from 9:30-10:00 pm until 4:30-5:00 am. I woke up one night at 11:30, went to the bathroom, and went right back to sleep.

It is a miracle. I truly don’t remember the last time I slept through the night. The occasional night here and there (VERY few and far between), but 7 days in a row?

I would like to say it’s because I quit drinking, but I slept through the night after Virginia City the other day, and we did drink. I don’t know what’s causing it, but I am very happy. I wake up in the morning and I’m not pissed off because it’s time to get up already. I would like to stay in my warm bed and cuddle my husband a bit longer, but the anger is GONE.

And I haven’t been taking tranquilizers either, (That word cracks me up. Here, take one of these. You will be TRANQUIL. They should be called Numbilizers) though I did take a quarter of one last night. It felt like one of those nights where I was going to lay in bed and every mistake I have ever made in my life was going to be replayed before my eyes. Which it was, until I dropped off about 10pm. I was actually planning what I was going to do at 12:00 am if I was still awake, then-out. Like a light.

I did have another strange dream. Something about Hubb’s telling me “Well, I can KISS”. As in another woman. I woke up this morning and the first thing I said was “I don’t understand why you have to be so mean to me in my dreams.” Weird, because I trust him more than I have ever trusted another person in my life.

Here’s to night #8.


Miyonao said...

Isn't it amazing that when you do one good thing for yourself(in your case, quit drinking), other parts of your life all start getting better too?

So happy for you. A good night of sleep is the start of a good day.

Little Wing said...

Here's to pleasant dreams....

LulaBelle said...

Thank you ladies! I'm on night 8!