Thursday, October 16, 2008

Nut Job

I woke up this morning, after a terrible night's sleep, and the first thing that popped in my head was my rant from yesterday. I felt bad for criticizing others belief system.

So I took it down.

I actually wish I could have such strong convictions. I wish I had a strong set of beliefs to get me through my day. I've tried, oh yes I have. Everything from AA to Unity Ministry, to of course, Mormon.

I can't do it. I feel like I don't fit in, that I'm a fraud and everyone knows it.

Anyway, I'm trying to be positive today. So I'm starting over.

One thing I know about myself-I should not read the news. Horrible things get stuck in my head, then I dream about them, then it ruins my day.

Last night I dreamed of that missing little girl, whose mother was just charged with murder. It was a horrible dream, and I have a horrible image stuck in my head. So I took the advice of fellow blogger Miyonao, and started telling myself positive things- It's going to be a great day, you're a strong woman Lula-you can do this!

So here I am. Thinking positive thoughts, and trying to look forward to my day.

Have a good one!


Anonymous said...

I find it hard to stick to any set of beliefs. I tend to take a little something from many different religions and philosophies but I find it impossible to follow anything strictly.

Miyonao said...

Great to hear that my advice helped! You made my day!

By the way, I don't watch news either. They only talk about worst things happened in the world.

But I like horror movies...hehe..

LulaBelle said...

I do that too Red. I think that as long as I live my life in a way that makes God proud, I'm doing ok.

Miyonao-I don't think I've watched a horror movie in 20 years! Though I did watch "The Ring", and it scared the beejesus out of me!