Saturday, November 8, 2008

Random Thought

I was just outside sweeping leaves, and I thought about how much I love my life right now, and how many times in the past I tried to end it.

It seems weird now-I have such a profound fear of death, and a strong love of life. But there were times, my God. I've taken so many pills, and had so many stitches in my arm. I see the scars as a daily reminder to appreciate and love this life I'm in.

4 comments:

Dan said...

I think it's great that you have turned those scars into such a positive reminder of the value of your life!

LulaBelle said...

Thanks Dan. I need reminders to seek out the positive!

Anonymous said...

I wake up every morning and wonder why.

LulaBelle said...

Why we're here? Or why bother to go on?

There is a reason we are all here. I have no idea what it is, but there must be a reason I've hung on for so long. I bet there's a reason for you too. You'll find it. Don't give up looking.